Today I miss everything

Remember everything I said yesterday?

How I was fine and even thriving 

And I could probably do this forever?

Forget it all. 

That was yesterday.

Today I miss everything.

I miss spontaneity.

A quick trip to the grocery store

Having friends for a last minute dinner

Ending up with a kid-less Saturday evening

I miss freedom

To have coffee and conversation with friends, 

while looking them in the eyes.

To eat excellent food, cooked by someone else.

To plan summer adventures.

I miss the quiet, calm of my empty house

Knowing my people are out there, living in the world.

I miss reconnecting with my girls

The sudden burst through the front door, 

Filled with indignation and the drama of the day.

I miss looking forward to the sound of the garage door,

announcing Shaun’s re entrance into the family,

Just in time for dinner

I miss the ebb and flow of normal life

Even if it was busy

Even if it was cluttered

Even if the break has been good